Personal Ramblings

remembering god at 11:48pm

After almost exactly 24 months since I started praying for it, at about 3pm today, I got it. What “it” is is irrelevant to the telling of the story. Even though, in all those months, I had not lost faith nor hope, when I finally got it, I was surprised and breathtakingly delighted.

First, I texted my husband with the good news.

Then I told my kids.

Third, I called my parents and my mother-in-law.

Finally, I sat down to make a list of friends of family to email about the news–since so many have been praying for me.

To top the day off, Roy thought I should get the night off from the kitchen and we should celebrate with take out from Olive Garden.

I could not have asked for a better day–the usual streak of bad luck that creeps in at the 11th hour missed my door altogether day. Curling up with Mr. Kitty I watched a movie in bed and smiled to myself.

Almost midnight, I turned off the lights, slipped under the covers–feeling very blessed and content. And then I remembered. In all my elation, I had forgotten to thank God!

I’m ashamed. So many years, so many miracles, so many awesome gifts later, I can still be such a human brat.

So I’ve turned on the lights again to blog about my self-centered day, to stop and give thanks.


Spiritual Musings

God makes memories

Genesis 41:49 Joseph collected so much grain–it was like the sand of the ocean!–that he finally quit keeping track.
This verse relates a simple fact: Joseph could not humanly keep track of all the grain that God provided. It also paints a picture of hyperbolic proportions: I imagine Joseph sitting on a haystack while his workers roll wheelbarrows full of grain into silos. Quill in hand, Joseph frantically tries to keep count of the wheelbarrows. He brings in assistants, but is still short-staffed. So he gets assistants for his assistants. Imagine the frustration and excitement that simultaneously wrought this man–a man accustomed to being in control,  organized, efficient, on top of things!
To pray and be heard is warm and fuzzy; to be surprised and overwhelmed by God’s goodness is to have a memory that you will remember for eternity.