Personal Ramblings

when there are no explanations

My parents are 70, my mother-in-law 80. And I’ve prepared myself to face the inevitable one day. One day, I’ll have to let go, say goodbye, and give praise for their lives and the ways they’ve made a difference in mine. So, yeah, I’ve been sort of prepping myself.
But I hadn’t prepared myself for the unexpected sudden death of loved ones. So when my sister-in-law died yesterday–so suddenly–I felt my world literally screech to a halt. Objectively, I know that life goes on, that God allows only that which we can bear, etc, etc,. I know all this; yet, I can’t seem to take my foot off the brakes.
I need some sort of explanation and there aren’t any.